3 Days to Go and Hopelessly Love Drunk

As'salamu alaykum one and all.

If I don't go into labor this week, I will be induced Friday evening. Can you believe it? We cannot. Inshaallah it will be a smooth and sound process. We just want baby to be healthy.

I stopped working last Monday, and that gave me a nice opportunity to recover from the wicked case of bronchitis, as well as tie up some loose ends and get ready for baby. Nesting is complete. My husband can't stop smiling, as he is waiting patiently.

The past few days have been one of the most beautiful and peaceful periods in my life. It's been a time of reflection, supplication and expectation. Each prayer with my husband has become more precious, as I know that it will stop for a while after our son is born. I've never felt more IN love, in my life.

My husband and I decided to write letters for a keepsake book we have started for our baby. His is in Arabic, mine in English. I have always envied that my husband is multi lingual/literate. My husband wrote three pages, and read it to me last night when he came home from work at 3:00 am.

It was the most beautiful and emotionally raw/naked moment we have had in a long time. He bared his soul to his son, and when it became to much for him, he paused. The pauses, caused me flooding tears and immense joy. I never enjoyed hearing my husband's voice, so much, ever. His thoughts were humble, kind, educated, understanding, gentle and tender. I am still reeling. My GOD, I am incredibly blessed. What a beautiful gift. For that moment, time stood still, and I realized that we needed it.

When it was my turn to read my letter out loud, I couldn't. The tears were overwhelming, yet soothing. My husband just comforted me like never before. When I began reading, he became so quiet and still, he kept nodding his head, and then he began to cry.

Never in my life, do I recall such a beautiful moment in time. I know the best is yet to come, but this was one of those precious experiences that never leave a soul. My GOD, please know that I thank you from the bottom of my heart for it.

After we were done, he rested his head on my bosom and caressed my big belly in the dark. The most unusual bird, started singing alone- there were no others. That is when we realized it was time for fajr. The bird was singing and praising, and I didn't want it to stop. We prayed, reflected, then drifted off to the most peaceful sleep.

I never could have planned this.

Alhmdulillah wu shukru lillah for everything in this life and the next.


3 Birds Chirpin':

fashionista sister said...

Hey, A.O.A, have just discovered your blog (thru my older sister umm-salihah's blog-happy muslim mama) just wanted to say that this extract was very deep, mashallah u r lucky to have been blessed with a loving husband and beautiful baby. May Allah always keep u smiling.

iMuslimah said...

Fashionista sister!


It took me a bit to figure out what AOA meant! My brain has turned to mush.

Thank you for stopping by and reading! This is my fave post, because it embodies all that I loved about being pregnant.

I adore your sister's blog- she is a gifted writer mashaallah. I often wonder where she finds the focus and talent to express herself and her opinions so eloquently.

Do you blog too?

Ma Salama,

iMuslimah & iBaby

Fashionista sister said...

A.O.A again (btw i had probs figuring out wat that meant too wen i came across it) i thot i had lost your blog as it isnt on my sisters! lol, i regularly check her posts and when bored at work check out the ones that comment on hers too. Hows ibaby? i dnt blog (yet...maybe wen im married and abit older.. too lazy and my life is abit boring still.lol) im sure ur comments and other bloggers will come in handy in time! oh and yes my sis is good with words... i got plenty of criticism on my uni essays through her but all for my benefit so cannot complain! look forward to reading more of your entries! Keep well ;O)